“I will not let you go unless you bless me.”
You see, as much as I have been blessed with so many beautiful memories and life experiences, I cannot ignore the many times where I have and still do wrestle with God. Quite frankly, I feel like my walk with God often tends to go back to this place of struggle. I have tried to resent those feelings of powerlessness; ignore those frustrations about certain aspects of my life. But, no matter how much I try to avoid God and do things my way or try to stay away from Him, every single time, I come to the conclusion that I cannot be at a better place in my life than to be alone with the Almight God wrestling out different issues until He blesses me with an answer. The fights are often long, they are often painful but, this kind of pain is so sweet compared to those times where I try to fight to make things work on my own. Here's how I break it down: I feel anxious when I am frustrated about not being able to control or fix a situation myself and I feel anguish when I am trying to make myself surrender a part of my life to God or am waiting on Him to bless me with freedom from a part of my sinful heart.
A friend sent me a really neat video today about this Scripture that I have posted on my wall. It's called
The Theology of the Cross and Walking with a Limp by Timothy Keller. It gave a really cool perspective to this Scripture passage that I am so fascinated with! I hope it blesses you with insight as it did for me :)
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