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Monday, January 18, 2016

Not Just Another Saturday

It was one of those Saturday mornings. Waking up hoping to spend extended intentional time with God because all this week, my time with Him was shorter than I would have wished; finding that I tend to spend more time fighting for alone time with Him than actually enjoying my time with Him. I prayed a little, committed my day to Him and quickly had to start to get ready. There was this event at my church that I was excited to go to: a workshop on learning how to plan your life in line with God’s will. Epic!! I know J

As usual, on Saturdays, I turn my brain off and just want to extend the amount of time I can stay in the cozy of my home, so before I knew it, I was going to be late for a church event on “planning my life” – the irony! To remedee the situation, I decided to request an Uber driver and waited for him to arrive.

The app said that he was coming in 5 minutes, so I decided that this was enough time to scarf down a bite or two before the driver’s arrival. Thankfully, he came a little later than announced, which allowed me to eat to my heart’s content.

When he arrived, he apologized in his foreign accent for his lateness and proceeded to fight with the Google App to get the voice over option to work. He must have been in his late-50s.  A sweet Middle Eastern man with a crown of white hair covering his head and gentle eyes that complimented his face.

Seeing him struggle to get the app to work, I offered to use the Googlemap app on my phone and we resumed our drive to the church. Like in every Uber ride, out of courtesy, I always listen to see if the person is (or if I am) in a chatty mode. Before you knew it, he was sharing his love for Persia, his beautiful country of origin that was taken over by Iran just several decades ago.

The conversation eventually switched to religious views when I asked what the main religion was in Iran. Before answering my question, he first said: “I am not a religious person”. The answer was Muslim. Confident in what I believe and in the God I serve, I did not challenge his view. I simply listened to him share his perspective on the world and about religion as I quietly prayed and waited upon the Lord to lead this conversation wherever He pleased.

To my surprise, when he finished his explanation, he asked me what I thought about religion. I was shocked. In my experience, people are often quick to share their view about the world, bashing the church and religion assuming that their view is educated and accurate; not welcoming other perspectives differing from their own. I was prepared to have a friendly conversation where I would listen more, ask questions, pray and share as much as the Lord put on my heart to speak – very little was my expectation. So his response, to say the least, surprised me.

This said, I accepted his invitation to share my belief and spoke according to 1 Peter 3:15. I explained that for the most part, humanity was born with an innate sense of right and wrong. A small child knows or experiences the traumatic effects of abuse even if no one ever pre-conditioned them to understand that it is wrong. Humanity (as a general rule – aside from those with severe mental or emotional imbalances) understand that murder is wrong, was another example.

I shared how many societies function according to the understanding that there is something in this world that is greater than ourselves. Many cultures have a type of value system which involves religion in some way, shape or form – this comes from the theory of the collective unconscious by Carl Jung. If all of humanity has had this innate reflex to seek to serve the Greater Purpose, maybe something needs to be said there.

As we drove by a hospital, I explained how institutions like these go against the Darwinian survival of the fittest theory that suggest that only the strongest should survive. If it was truly the case, why do we work so hard to find cures for those who are so weak? According to Darwin, these people should not need to live if they cannot do it by their own strength.

I agreed with him that it was wrong for a stream of devout Muslims to lose their lives with the intention of killing others in the name of a god. By I also challenged the fact that there are many devout Christians who accept the path of martyrdom because of their love for God. In these two examples, what is the difference in their response to humanity and death and can we really say that they serve the same God?

I shared with him that I agreed that we should do good actions, love each other, serve each other and be nice to others. I explained how these are the things that Jesus teaches when He says “Love your neighbor as yourself”, He says “no greater love is this than the man who lays his life for his friends”. I shared how Jesus lived by example, loving His neighbors to the point of death on a cross; that He exemplified good actions and serving each other.

I explained how even while we do good actions, the motive can be selfish: I do good because it makes ME feel good. But to do good with a pure motive, we need help from the One who holds pure motives; namely, Jesus-Christ. Jesus laid HIS life for US, sinners. He died for those who put nails on his hands and feet.

We are sinners because we never needed to be taught to do wrong. No one teaches us to lie, throw a temper tantrum or hit our siblings. To the contrary, we need to be socialized to do the opposite of those impulses. The Perfect God created a perfect man to have a relationship with Him. When this relationship was broken by sin, God set a plan to restore this relationship to Him by sending the perfect sacrifice to pay the price: His Perfect Son had to die on the cross for us.

This is the type of perfect selfless love that God calls us to. When we accept Jesus-Christ as personal Lord and Savior, the Holy Spirit comes to inhabit our hearts. It is with the help of the Holy Spirit that we are able to love others; not because it makes us feel good, but because God IS good.

Honestly, it felt like the words were just flowing out of my mouth. After a while of talking though, I stopped myself because I wanted to make sure that did not monopolize the conversation. I paused and asked for his thoughts on what I just said. I was curious.

He responded in his thick accent by applauding and saying “I see that you are a lecturer”…. (In my mind, I was thinking: “Oups! That is not what I was going for! Is that a good thing?”) He said that he had nothing to say and agreed with me… which again, threw me aback.

As I listened for a response, and none came, I figured, that it was my cue to keep talking. So I shared about God’s love for us. How He has taught me the best and deepest lessons through long seasons of hardship. That the things in life that were meant to put me down, God turned into good: He used these times to sharpen my character. I explained that God wants us to “be Holy as [He] is Holy”. I explained that just like one must put a raw piece of gold through fire to rid of its imperfections, so must we go through the fire of life’s hardships to come out the other side, purer than we previously were.

We eventually arrived at the church. My blabber-mouth had run out. He parked and said: “I love Jesus!” I was so moved by God’s work in that car! Before I left, I asked if he wanted to accept Jesus into his heart… he said YES! I cried, just humbled by God’s work in this man’s life through me! So speechless that God would use someone like me who does not have it all together! And so, we prayed together that he may invite Jesus be the Lord of His life. Before I left the car, he kissed me on the cheek, thanking me for this gift of obedience.

I am still in awe at the glory of God. Let’s not forget to make every moment a time to be open to be used by God. He wants to use us for His glory. So many siblings in Christ have not yet been awakened. So many brothers and sisters in Christ are not aware of their Loving Father waiting for them with open arms ready to love them as His own. We need to remember that in every situation, in season, and out of season, our expectations and God’s plans are not the same. It is our time of intimacy with Him in the secret place, our study of the Word, our study ABOUT the Word (reading books and commentaries, doing in-depth research, listening to teachers and preachers) that will help equip us to be effective for His Kingdom at all times.

This is the first time I ever led a stranger to Christ. I always had, and still do have the perspective that in the Kingdom, some have been made to sow and others to reap. I always saw those with the gift of evangelism as reapers and saw myself as a seed planter: sowing the Love of Christ wherever I go; letting God work His master plan through the hands of the whole family of Christ all equipped differently to love those who do not yet know the love of God in different ways through independently unique gifts of obedience at different times. But I guess, God can use whoever, whenever. And I guess, roles and seasons in our lives change sometimes.

I am sharing this because a Truth was strengthened in my heart that Saturday. When we are quicker to listen than to speak, to God first and then others, with the help of Holy Spirit, we learn to hear the heart of a person. We learn to hear what they have not said with their words. Our mind is silenced to their words and we allow our hearts listen to theirs. Holy Spirit speaks to the heart. We need to keep our minds quiet before the Lord, not only in the secret place. He is the one who seeks the lost, we are only blessed enough to be sinners saved by grace God chooses to work through to make His glory known. No matter our knowledge, we have nothing to show for; only obedience and humility to express our love to a Gracious and Loving Father.

Now go. Seek His face and let Him work in you, so He can work through you.

Praise be to God!

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Marah, that Bitter, Bitter Place

In a bitter place, where exhaustion was felt and miracles had been forgotten, an entitled cry for help was heard.

Rather than patiently waiting upon a Loving Father's provision who had proven that He always provides, this resentful cry was anxiously demanding that basic needs be filled rather than to peacefully ask for and calmly wait upon what God had already planned to give.

Forgetting that He is called Jehovah-Jireh, worry muted out of  their minds the meaning of His identity. Why was it so easy to omit to consider the many times where He has done as His character indicates?

He knows our needs and knows where He is leading us. He is Jehova-Rohi.

He sees our valleys before we do and knows of our peaks before we reach them. He is El-Roi.

Still then, no matter how many times a person walks and talks with the Lord; no matter how many times El-Elyon provided through fulfilled promises and miracles, immediate need seems to quickly blind a person to the provisions of the past, and the Truthful Promises of His Word.

What a patient, loving and gentle God is One who constantly reminds, constantly provides for a dependent being who often forgets that he is the servant and not the master.

Thank you for your love & patience, Abba. Please restore my heart and mind that I may have all my faith & hope in You. Help me that I may faitfully pray and be positive and hopeful as I wait upon You. Remind me of who I am in You, I plea. In Jesus' precious & Holy name I pray, Amen.

Biblical Reference: Exodus15:22-26

Sunday, January 18, 2015

Heal in Time... continued

I love how things never stay grim for long. Weeks after being able to put into words the weight on my heart that had been lingering for too long, as I was reading over this poem, these words came to mind... I like to think they came from someOne greater that I :)
 

Wisdom found me in my times of trial to share with me an insight.
While it is impossible to change the rhythm of the song that Time makes,
To help me win at the game against Time,
She whispered to me this secret:

Make patience an art, Make Joy a lifestyle and Make Time a friend.

Heal in Time

My heart throbs.
It aches for what once was.
The irony is this:
I left it alone!
I walked away from a painful present situation to allow it to become
But a simple sad memory…
And still,
My whole body aches from this broken heart and this bruised body.

With all the strength of the mind, bearing the scars of others’ sin upon my heart,
I finally commanded my body to walk away from this broken relationship, from this pain named Constant.
After numerous nights of questioning and doubting,
And aching and crying,
I finally created distance between this Constant Pain and I!
“Victory!” I sang.
Yet.
When all seems quiet, when all seems peaceful,
Boom boom, boom boom…
The sound of my heart is what I hear loudly resounding in the cavity of my mind.
To my dismay, I noticed that my body is still swollen from the injuries.
My mind desires nothing more than to leave what once was alone!
Yet, the ache in my body makes this endeavor feel
Simply impossible.

Leaving the past in the past is my earnest desire.
But this unwarranted injury is a reminder that,
No matter my urge, no matter my intention, no matter my effort,
Nothing but Time will heal this bruised body and this broken heart.

O Time! Peculiar character…
One through which we exist,
One without which we cannot!
Being its own entity, it will not be rushed, it will not be pushed.
It heals well, but it heals when it wills
And none can fight its will.
Time has what we do not:
Control.
We cannot walk away from it.
And to make matters worst,
Time plays a game with moments to which only it knows the rules.

Time has its game, Time has its tune.
Time has a rhythm that none can tame.
It created a melody all its own 
Not a note can be changed!

Now then,
If only in Time I will heal,
I must allow my heart be mended,
Moment by moment,
To the sound of a tic and the song of a toc.
I must accept that to the beat of Time,
My deformed body and my battered heart will smooth themselves over
Time’s pace remains and its purpose does not change.
Only Time can choose when the moment is right
To see scars appear where flesh was once raw.

Tic…Toc… Tic… Toc…
This constant sound, it seems, never fails.
As the rhythm of the song never changes,
Whether one sits to listen to the music that Time makes
Whether one chooses to ignore it,
The rules of Time remains:
In Time, what will begin will be ended,
In Time, what will break will be mended.
Ultimately, the truth seems to be that
In Time,
What will be will be.

So, to you my little heart, and to you my bruised body,
I say
Wait on Time.
For in it,
Your body will strengthen
Once more.
Live in the freedom of forgiveness
And let your heart learn to love
Better than before,
This time, from a wiser place,
This time, from a gentler place,
This time with a quiet strength. 

Remember that Time belongs to Him who Is.
Remember that you are His.
Little heart who loves Him, remember!
Remember that He works all things together for your good,
Remember that He is good,
Remember that those scars are not your own.
While your body has lost its strength, 
It was never meant to be strong
On its own.

So to you, little heart I say
In this secret place where He held you many times before.
Lean into His heart and be weak there,
Let Him heal you, mend you, soothe you.
Let Him love you into being
To the sound 
That His clock makes.

Saturday, July 26, 2014

When God Wants To Drill A Man

When God wants to drill a man,
And thrill a man,
And skill a man
When God wants to mold a man
To play the noblest part;
When He yearns with all His heart
To create so great and bold a man
That all the world shall be amazed,
Watch His methods, watch His ways!
How He ruthlessly perfects
Whom He royally elects!
How He hammers him and hurts him,
And with mighty blows converts him
Into trial shapes of clay which
Only God understands;
While his tortured heart is crying
And he lifts beseeching hands!
How He bends but never breaks
When his good He undertakes;
How He uses whom He chooses,
And which every purpose fuses him;
By every act induces him
To try His splendor out-
God knows what He’s about.
- Anonymous

Sunday, July 20, 2014

God's Silence

It’s enough to drive a man crazy, it’ll break a man’s faith
It’s enough to make him wonder, if he’s ever been sane
When he’s bleating for comfort from Thy staff and Thy rod
And the Heaven’s only answer is the silence of God

- Andrew Peterson

Hearing God's voice has been a longing of my heart for quite some time now. As I have tried and tried to practice the skill of silence in prayer and attempted to discern His voice (i.e. His plan for my life), though at times rightfully confused and others wrongly confident, I have come to the conclusion that I desire Him more... This article by Jon Bloom makes an interesting observation on the reason why God may seem silent to us at times. It was quite an encouraging read. As I continue to pursue this quest where growing fonder of the One called Love, letting Him mould me in the image of His Son and as I try to follow the path that He drew for me for His glory; I can remain uplifted and hopeful as I continue to learn to listen to the Holy Spirit and walk on this path that appears to be narrow. Thankfully, I have TRUE confidence that He will never leave nor forsake me. This is why I can say with confidence, The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me? (Hebrews 13:5-6)

When God Seems Silent - Jon Bloom

After all this, this is the mystery that keeps me perplexed:
But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come. - John 16:13 (NIV)

On that note, I guess more seeking is to be done...


Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Peaceful Symphony

What a glorious morning!

I woke up to raindrops waltzing on the rooftop.
The Wind singing in all elegance as she glided through the trees.
And the leaves performed ballet's perfection to the grace of her voice.

The symphony of a rainy day is a peaceful melody that keeps you rested; it leaves you satisfied. 
For a moment, Time can but remain still as this beauty becomes cherished by the mind.

To wake up to its sound is to be the choices spectator of an art piece that inspires the soul and fills the heart with contentment.